Just a note for my heart

Dear heart,

I know you've been crying yourself so bad recently,
I know you loved that girl so much and you said you always will.
Hold on dear heart, Allah always hears us... Allah will make our way to reach the goal.

Dear heart,

I know you missed her so much, but remember dear heart
If you really love her, let her choose,
Pray to Allah that her heart will choose you too someday.

Dear heart,

Promise to yourself that you'll keep her for as long she is married to anyone
Promise to yourself to improve yourself so you can be the best man for her to be with
Promise to yourself to love her because of Allah

Dear heart,

Don't fall for Satan's lie that love is all about physical contact
Don't bear in yourself that she's yours until you are married
Don't fall for others like you planned

Dear heart,

May you think it's hard to keep her in the heart
May you think it's impossible to let her heart fill with your love
May you think it's a waste of time loving her

Please know that true love lasts as long as it is not prohibited
Please know that the heart can change and by nature they want to be loved
Please know loving someone is a sacrifice, but don't get obsessed like you did before

Dear heart,

If you love her, take care of her but don't control her
If you love her, guide her to be closer to Allah
If you love her, don't make her hate you

Dear heart,

Love Allah above everything
Love your parents more than anybody else
Love her because you want to be in heaven with her and to make her as a way to show love to your parents

Dear heart,

Stop crying and be strong
Stop being a jerk and do what Islam teach us to do
Stop being sad and be AWESOME instead

To the woman I love,

I pray you will be my wife
I hope your heart will be ready for me and just for me(Allah, Rasul and family IS COMPULSRY)
I just want you to know, care about you so much
I just want you to know, when i scold you it is because it's not my wish, but it's an obligation as a Muslim
I want you to change not entirely as I wanted.. but Islam wants a woman to be like

To the woman I love,

I hope, there will be love inside you,
I hope there will be me inside your heart
I hope you pray to Allah one day, to make me your husband
I know I may crossed some limit, its my fault and I'm sorry for that

To the woman I love,

I will always love you
I will always pray for you
I will always care for you

To the readers,

Sorry I've been too busy to update
Sorry if this post doesn't really favour you
Sorry because this post is too emotional

To the readers,

please help me to be close to Allah
please pray that I'll be with the girl i love
please please and pretty please, pray that we will be together

AS HUSBAND AND WIFE

The Delayed Post

Meet Caby(pronounced chubby) the cutest son I have :P

Whoo.... I actually should've done this post a little bit earlier... but due to several factors(mainly laziness) had stopped me from updating my blog.. I've lost a lot of ideas to write after i postponed my update :P

anyways, let me sort it out first on what happened for the past 1 month of holiday(including several days before i went home from CFS IIUM PJ)

1. Final Meeting With FMC :(
2. Few driving class :)
3. TOF Smart Solat Camp
4. Maulidurrasul in DJ
5. Holiday In Cherating
6. My Birthday
7. Examination Result
8. Forum in CFSIIUM Mosque
9. Back To CFS IIUM PJ

So above is what happened during that period :) after i list it down, its easier for me to talk about it one by one.

First, about my last meeting with the Foundation Moot Club(FMC). For the past 2 semesters being the syura council of FMC, i had been taught to do many kinds of things and also gain experience out of it. I admit it is tiring and sometimes stressful, but it is also fun! when I think about it again, it is sad that we are no longer a syura council... I missed them A LOT :'(

From Left: Jabir, Putra Haziq(President), Nazir(Sport Rec), Abd. Rasyid(Education& Training)

From Left: Nazir, Jabir, Rasyid, Shakinah(V.President 2), Illya(Treasurer)

I will be missing them forever insya-Allah. I'm glad that we met each other and make a syura council, you guys are Awesome.. i really mean AWESOME :) an absolute thanks I bit to all of you guys for the cooperation for the 2 semesters... :)

Next, driving class... Well, Ive been learning to drive for almost 1 year now... haha.. i extended the period of learning... I delayed the last 4 hours of driving class because of tonnes of reasons that i dont even know :P I cant wait to go for the JPJ test... so far i kinda have the confident to do it :) After i got my license, imma hit the road dear MALAYSIANS! :)

So during the holiday i went to Cherating for a wedding ceremony, a holiday and birthday ;)
before i go to Cherating, I went to a wedding ceremony in Kemaman... later that night i went to Stadium Darul Makmur to witness a match between Kelantan and Pahang, I was one of the Kelantan supporters(well, im not from Kelantan but my brother and his friends are the fan of Kelantan FC.)

At the stadium with my brother and his friend :)

Before we enter the stadium, we are checked by the policemen to be sure non of the audience are carrying illegal things, and at that moment, i learned that water bottle is one of them.. other than that is firecrackers and a lot more things... haha... Unfortunately the match ended with Kelantan loses 2-0 against Pahang..(i know now that any team that i support, when I watch the match, they'll lose) That is when the drama starts! suddenly out of the blue, a man threw a firecracker(either mercun bola or botol or whatever) towards the field... Its like a game when the policemen saw that guy.. that guy was some kind of.. stupid i guess... he ran directly towards the exit(which is guarded by a group of policemen) and so he was caught... he actually should run around the stadium so that the police will lose sight on him and he'll be free to go out the stadium :P

next, its my birthday! actually my birthday isnt that grand... haha... we had lunch the day before which is claimed as my birthday celebration, its cool though.. we ate otak-otak and also some sata and keropok lekor..arm wrestle before we had the food :)
eatin some sata with my bro dzar

yes we had a lot of fun there ;)
the hyper camera girl, my sister, she's the one who took the pictures
there she is... the queen of my heart... My beloved Ummi

but im not that fortunate because i got a sore throat... really bad sore throat up until today... :'( my throat is bleeding.. maybe Allah want's me to keep myself quiet :) and forgive my past sins insya-Allah... and I also didnt get the free calls on that day... i got it a week later.. thanks maxis! :P

before i forget, i got my birthday present earlier this week... i got a rabbit doll which i call Caby and i really love it.. i mean LOVE LOVE! thanks to my friend who gave me such a cute doll.. ill take care of caby well ;) and I also get a tie from the same people which really makes me happy because i do really like tie :D(that doesnt mean you can bribe me with a tie okayy)

me and caby... so cute rigght? haha tell me im insane but i hug this thing to sleep :P

Not so long after we came back from cherating, on the 17th march 2011, the date all of the students of CFS IIUM had been waiting for, the result! i can say that im the 1st student who had the view of the result... though my result is not that good.. still, i thank Allah for giving such result.... it shows that i have to work more and do more to get more! Thank you Allah, that sure had given me a lesson...

this is my result slip, its not that good.. just to show u :P dont click to view :P

I really do feel jealous because my friend got better result.. but that is good! we will be competing and also helping each other to get great result... so it should be a win-win situation :)

Next, I went for a forum discussing about the revolution in the middle east and what is the effect on our country in the CFS IIUM PJ mosque... the topic was a lil bit complicated which i decided not to write in this post.. but the members of the panel are representative from PAS, ABIM, Ikram and Hizbut Tahrir. Okay based on opinion, the best oralist was from ABIM then Ikram, PAS and lastly Hisbut Tahrir... why? ask me later... haha.., but i am dissapointed with the HT audience... they have no attitude during other oralist was talking... and their mind... the way they think is too narrow... i dont really see what is the contribution of HT in Malaysia... not that i hate them but they are too radical and theyre planning seems to be almost impossible.. i admit that the khilafah is the way that Rasulullah(pbuh) ruled the islamic country... but in Malaysia, it seems that its hard for that to happen in the meantime... even the oralist answer was not convincing me yet the HT members cheered.. DONT BE TOO JUMUD PLEASE!

Lastly, the day that ive been waiting for arrives... I went back to CFS... its interesting that ive met the woman i really wished i met... the mother of one of my friend... she is soo sooo sooo sporting :) we even went to Jaya One together... haha... she is so cheerful, happy go lucky... no wonder her daughter is like her... i just feel so comfort with them.. they are FRIENDLY AND AWESOME! later that day was the time when i get my baby named Caby hehee....

I think that is all for now.... and yes, for the readers, sorry i updated late.. i didnt know that people actually... i mean REAL PEOPLE actually READS my blog! :P and sorry again if this posts is boring and please love caby like i do :P

The Crash of An Ark Called Love

Well tonight, I will be talking about an Ark called love

Love is a very beautiful thing,
Love is extraordinary,
Love is something everyone feels,
Love is everyone's desire,
Love is a treasure of life

Because of love, we know bliss
and because of it we know happiness, we know joy, prosperity
and also because of love we know anger, hate and grudge

So what is my point for today's post,

well this is what I've learned today.. the very unpleasant side of love he don't event hope to bear,
the sadness and the dark side of love, well it happens to my friend, she didn't know love
she had never been in a relation, NEVER. but now she knows what is a heart break.
had this innocent girl tried to please others, but never did she realized, she's killing people one. by one. Never would i blame this girl for it, i understand that she is not ready for it.

Sometimes, we have to be strict on our position, our decision.. maybe for us its nothing but it matters to the people around us, who loved us.. sometimes rejection is not an option but a must.
well now we all know that love is a poison if it is not handled with care...

Now the broken heart, its irreversible, it can heal but with time. U cant expect things to be the same my friend, the drama, the act, the play, wont last, it'll eventually re-explode.. you may see them happy, be around you, makes you smile, but their smile wont be the same, in their mind is always to think of that person they love, how they are frustrated, but because of love, they'll be with u, to see u smile...

And never you say to them, if u want to be their friend tell them if they find another girl, and tell them to get the girl, when you say that, you'll be like stabbing them on their heart. They know themselves if they find another girl, and the moment they find, they're not going to be the same ever... YES they are still you friend, but you'll never get to be treated by them the same way, if you like em, just tell the truth. they'll understand... because if they went too far on loving you, they'll might end up killing themselves(by the means of suicide for the losers ,major frustration for the winners and the champion they'll be sad and them move on).

if he's trying to win you, over and over again, and he loved you, he showed you the care, and still loving you no matter what happens, and u broke his heart over and over again, the second you fall for him(well, if it happens, who knows), you might as well suffers when he moved on, maybe u don't want him to move on, but your action might pressured him and there he goes. and nobody will love you like he did.. maybe he's not for you that's all... but don't you worry, they'll be a man who will still love you... except its not the same person, not the same personality, and never will be the same love.

That is when you know, the ark of love, that is made with effort, had crashed and sink.. in the deepest sea(well in this earth it is the Mariana Trench). when the ark is gone, there will be nothing left.

I'm not a professional in love but this is my opinion and just to share my opinion, n to my friend, sorry if this post offended you.. i have to be sincere to let you know what's in my mind

to fatin, SORRY tido lambat, nak update blog :P

Short Message :D

Okay.. so today i was thinking of making this post a lil bit meaningful,
i was still hoping that this post might make us puase and ponder upon ourselves.

okay firstly, as a Muslim, im not saying that i am perfect or anything close to it. I make sins, i cant escape them even on this very moment i feel like I've made a lot of sins to Allah. we all know we had done something wrong.. whether we made it in public or maybe we did it without anyone knowing. And the worst part is, we know that Allah is watching us yet we still do it, this is the weirdest part! As a Muslim, we should be scared of Allah's wrath.... It's shameful that we admit that we are a Muslim, we admit that Allah is our god, we admit that Allah sees us anywhere and everywhere. but why? why is our action shows that it is different from what had we claimed! I am afraid that we will be considered as the munafiq for our action, I felt so bad when I read this verse from the Qur'an

[63.Surah Al-Munafiqun : Ayah 1]

إِذَا جَاءكَ الْمُنَافِقُونَ قَالُوا نَشْهَدُ إِنَّكَ

لَرَسُولُ اللَّهِ وَاللَّهُ يَعْلَمُ إِنَّكَ لَرَسُولُهُ

وَاللَّهُ يَشْهَدُ إِنَّ الْمُنَافِقِينَ لَكَاذِبُونَ

O! Prophet Muhammad (Sal-allahu-alleihi-wasallam) When the hypocrites come to you, they say: We bear witness that you are most surely Allah's Apostle; and Allah knows that you are most surely His Apostle, and Allah bears witness that the hypocrites are surely liars.

when i was reading, my heart feels so cold. it kinda shivers. and everytime i think about this verse.. or maybe while i was doing something wrong, i remembered this verse... but its sad that i keep on doing.. this is human, this is ME :'(
So then ive decided that imma do a lil bit of reading on hypocrisy... well... now i think imma share it with the readers with the hope that we all can think where is our position

So this is several things that i can share

Hadeeths

Allah's Messenger Muhammad (Sal-allahu-alleihi-wasallam) said

[Transmitted by Sahih Bukhari]

Hadrat Umar mentioned the hadeeth of the Prophet Muhammad (Sal-allahu-alleihi-wasallam): "The thing from which I fear for you the most is the knowledgeable hypocrite." Hadrat Umar was then asked: "How can a hypocrite be knowledgeable?" To which Hadrat Umar answered: "He speaks with wisdom but acts with injustice."

Shari'a

In the Shari’a, nifaaq (hypocrisy) is of two types:

a) Greater (An-Nifaaq Al-Akbar): To present an outward appearance of belief in Allah, his Angels, his books, his messengers, the last day, etc. while concealing with that which negates all or some of that. This is the hypocrisy which the Prophet Muhammad (Sal-allahu-alleihi-wasallam) confronted during his life and the ones who Allah said in the Quran that they are in "the lowest depth of hell-fire".

b) Lesser (An-Nifaaq Al-Asghar): or hypocrisy of action: To present an outward appearance of good and good deeds while concealing within that which negates that.

Thus, i hope we all think back upon ourselves. and pray to Allah that we are not in this category of Muslim...

on the other side of the story, earlier today, i had a conversation with one of my best friend... and the topic was love.. i was impressed by her.. seriously! one of her best statement was

"I hope that word(I love you) will only be for my husband"(well the conv was in Malay)

and at that time, I was stoned! even I never think that the word will only be for my wife! and i think ive spilled that word when i was in form 1... what the heck! =,=

and so i prayed for you dear friend! may your word came true.. only your husband deserves it :)

i think that iss all my idea for tonight... i actually watching movies.. that is why i make it short :P

Be Strong Because You Are Awesome!

Dear Friend,

Today's post is specially dedicated to my most honoured friend... It's a message straight from my heart to you :)

Dear Friend,

I know this had been the tough times for you, I know how much you feel tortured about what happened. but you don't have to be sad or worry.
It's no use for you to be sad or to be frustrated about it. Well you see, as your friend. I was in very deep shock when you text-ed me and told me that unfortunate eveng but you shouldn't be sad because you know I will back you up! :)

well this is a public service announcement:

DON'T BE A JERK AND BREAK A GIRL'S HEART

so if you readers think that you are the one above, please quit it, their heart is not a toy.

Yes, YOU ARE if you did what is not for you to do

So my message for my friend here is please be strong and just let it go. You know it's not worth a penny to be sad about it. okay? I'm being so weird today because I cared and I hated what happened. Anyways, you have to rise again and by mean rise again, be stronger and better than before :)

Seriously this is good :)

I seriously saying that it's no point of being sad though I know this may be hard for you. It's okay! let them go away :) La tahzan ya ukhti, in Allaha ma'ana :) just be awesome as usual okay? I know you are awesome! Oops let me rephrase it. I know you are incredibly AWESOME! :)

i think that is all for now :) I hope you'll be strong :) I do hope it's stronger than METAL!

As a sign of respect to my friend, I was told that I have to remove my post, guess what? im not deleting any post in my blog(the current post is the edited post) :) so be it :D
you should read this my friend
:) :) :) :)

Its about the questions that YOU ASK!

Again, direct to the title, we know what it is..... EXACTLY!

i've been laughing so hard ever since people ask me about my love life...
its funny that people thinks i have one, and i dont want to admit....
well, read this my beloved stalker, reader, follower and also the crushers.. haha
and not to forget, the victim of the story, my friend of the month, FATIN! :)

it has been a very dramatic moments of February innit? i can say that this month is the month of,
JABIR: THE LOVE LIFE(wonder if there will be a book on it) its funny that I had been asked on formspring about my girlfriend, my crush and bla bla... well..... they asked me a lot but non of them actually got the answer.. hahaha.. its so fun to make the questioner disappointed... but they never do give up? or may i restate it.... WONT YOU GIVE UP? haha... i dont really care you askin because i can easily answer that question with a yes or no... its fortunate for the stalkers(oh hi stalkers!) and the crushers(hey crushers!) because today i wanna restate and HIGHLIGHT that, I AM SINGLE! hahahaha... i know. the reaction is like (WOW HE'S SINGLE) and yes.. then when u keep on reading itll be like "Bapak bajet!" then u all will hate me and i will be happy because i wont have to think about having anymore of you stalkcrushers.. hahah...

for fatin, sorry dear! i didnt mean to highlight u so much in the post that could lead to this "DISASTER" haha... if i were to make a scene.. my words will be like this, "oh i missed fatin" or "fatin, i love u and i openly admit" hahahahaha.. and then the story will be spreading like virus i tell u..... so fatin, forgive me okay(though i didnt really need to apologize as i dont give a damn) but just to be clear that i didnt own you! :P hahaha

ala... even if i like/love u fatin, ape salahnye kan, ikut undang2 pon boleh kan? kita bukan adek bradek kan? ahaha... so whats the sin? :P sebuk je dorang! hhahaha....

im writing this post randomly to blabber about the questions.. hahaha
yes, recently also, people ask me about SEX(OOOOPS! explicit content) hahaha
idk why on earth are you ppl askin me about it.. u know i dont have any experience on it!
nauzubillah.... wait till im married! :P but even that i wont answer question about it...

actually i was hoping that i will get a question for me to ponder upon and to build my mind.. but people nowadays? what they ask? love, love, love and love =,= i know its not a sin to talk about love.. but does it have to be totally about love? ahahah.. i cant even see my question going on the right way or even the way i imagined.. i like answering question and stuff.. i dont care if it is crappy... but haha.... it kinda disappoint me to see and look back at my questions, nothing is related to education or anything important.. okay? :)

so, by the end of this post, i would be delighted if u all will get my point... or let me summarize it

1. IM NOT IN A RELATION (for i am single)
2. FATIN IS NOT MY "GF"(happy now? haha)
3. STOP HAVIN A CRUSH ON ME, IM NOTHING(well its annoying seriously)
4. IF I AM WITH ANT GIRL, ITS NOT A PROBLEM(u know i mean it)
5. DON'T TALK ABOUT SEX WITH ME(please dont make me look stupid)
6. LET'S SAY, UHM... IF U WANT TO ASK ME QUESTION, WILL IT BE POSSIBLE TO HAVE SOMETHING... EDUCATIONAL? POLITICS? LAW? ( crappy questions are still allowed)
7. I PURPOSELY WRITE IT IN CAPS SO YOU WILL NOT MISS IT! :P ( so please dont disappoint me)

Birthday, the sequel

The Birthday cake, credits to Faiz Mustafa for the cake :D

Haha... so like i mentioned in the previous post, imma put pictures of the birthday celebration...

dont ask me much why am i doing this post twice! its for the purpose of birthday present and to remember we celebrated fatin's birthday... YES you dont have to worry.. if u are making a party, come n invite me! and youll get a post too! haha... anyone.. not just this lady here(i prefer to call her makcik now) he he he..... so. without further delay, lets look at the pictures :)

She named this pose as the "cute" pose(she told me)

meet Ros :) they are having their birthday cake.. Ros's birthday is a bit earlier than Fatin
but both are awesome.. just awesome so much

Birthday Girls @ Jaya One

Cutting the cake.. though she didnt really have the talent to do so
She told us when she was cutting the cake
"sorry, bab-bab dapur ni memang fail" XP

the theme for tonight? black and red.. but not really
its a co-incidence that we wore the same colour(not really)
but that is the reason we took pictures together :P

So yes... all of us(fatin's friend, and my friend) had a great time together... she's 19 now.. older than me.. but i think im more matured than she is.. haha :P

p/s: may you be the princess ye! nvm.. i think the prince charming is already there but he's waiting the right time to come

and fatin, kalo prince dulu naik kuda, prince skrg naik ferarri.. sebab? KUDA! :P so if u were to dream of someone being your prince.. its either horse or ferarri okayy?? unless its BMW its different! :P